i had deleted the entire chunk i just typed. Cause i figured. It's time to take it private. HE has the right to not let others know too much about what is going on. In the meantime, another entry coming up in a couple of hours.
With lots of pics. And had supposedly cheered up my day until i had my very 1st surprise the moment i got home.
Another sleepless night. Another night im going to cry myself to bed. Another night where i had to think and think and think. Another night where i wallow in self pity.Please dont let my nightmare come true.
I will pray and pray like i've never before. Pray to every god and buddha and allah and goddess that it wont be right. I WILL KEEP PRAYING until you tell me what you meant.
Until then, i will only pray.
And YOU please pray for me as well. ALL OF YOU READING THIS.
PRAY THAT SHARMAIN'S NIGHTMARE WONT COME TRUE. please i beg of you. I REALLY NEED THAT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE RIGHT NOW.